I suppose if one is going on a quest, then getting plenty of rest might be a good first step. Sounds sort of prosaic, but it feels right. After all, I believe my quest will be mostly mental, although it has been suggested to me a trip to India and a visit with a guru should be considered. And consider it, I shall, because I really have no idea what this quest will entail, but back to good rest. It’s needed because it leads to good decision making, along with a proper diet, and now this feels a bit like Sesame Street.

I’ll shake that off, although I really feel I need to eat better. I’m pretty much in the catch as catch can camp, which means very little planning and hardly any attention at all to balanced, except I try to avoid sweets, and I hardly drink. So, in the off chance I do find the quest involves physical activity, then I need to nurture my body and give it a fighting chance. Durn, I just realized I should probably exercise. Good news, I’ve already made enquiries. I think the basics are covered.

As to the quest itself, what am I looking for? The holy grail seems out of the question. And it doesn’t feel at all Homeric, reference the physical activity thing. Maybe the quest is trying figure out what the quest should be? What’s the goal, what’s the purpose, what’s the point? My wife died. I feel like hell. So, what? It happens to a lot of people. I just don’t know. Which is why I’m starting with baby steps and concentrating on getting a good night’s sleep. If I’m building something, then it needs a good foundation, because launching off half-cocked, seems a recipe for disaster.

John W. Wilson is the author of The Long Goodbye: A Caregiver’s Tale